Fall Line Up

Enough of it!

I'm done with the sadness and the "oh, the life, oh the card games!"

You know what it's time for?

A good old fashion happy ramble.

I am SO excited! This summer was the end of many things, and one of them being, an Ace that will never again see another card deck. Still, it's an Ace, I'll keep in the back pocket of one of my old jeans because the memory is too important to let go. I nearly failed this summer. I nearly failed my health, my responsibilities, my everything. But I didn't, there were so many things keeping me up. Who knew that I would actually like painting. Who knew that ShebaLite would be Amaaaaazing! Who knew that I would get enough done for the artist's show, and now I'm so excited for this! AH!

Who knew right?

And Ultimate Alliance, and being an UGA. It's fresh new start, and all I needed was these couple days of rest. I got my fall lined up, and it's gonna be frickin' sweet!

Apologies

It seems I'm disappointing everyone left and right. You see, today is the perfect example of nightmares are made of, I wish I would just wake up, but I can't.

I can't.

I've discovered a new meaning of hell as I scraped off the remnants of my term. With each scrape, I felt the pain Prometheus felt as he pushed up the boulder forever ever more. And for me, scraping the paint felt like forever more because it gave me time to think. And the more I thought, the more tears would fight to come out. Before I thought hell was constantly falling. When you got too comfortable you would see the ground, after that short fright, you would fall again. Now I know, hell is seeing someone else, anyone else, suffering because of you. Hell is being the cause of someone else's misfortune. I learned this today, the hard way. I learned this today.

So what now.

Change. I never want to see a day like this again, and I will go out of my way to make sure it doesn't happen.